AUCTION NOTICE

AUCTION NOTICE

I am officially putting myself up for auction. Any funds generated will be put to a good cause which is undecided at this moment.

Bidding starts at whatever the first person may place.

What the winning bidder is entitled to:

Nights of passion. Comfort and cuddling. Good food. Companionship. An activity partner. Endless nights of dancing and partying til the break of dawn.

What the...........

Dear Reader,

I am always amazed at the number of groups that appear and exist on Facebook. I can understand finding your highschool buddies or even being a fan of a band, but these Facebook pages that are petitions....come on. I can believe that people will sign up to be apart of a particular group, which essentially just gets added to your Facebook status. People can learn more about you by the groups your in then by talking with you. The page that sparked this tiny rant was Stop Live Skinning of Animals in China. The person that created this page believes that every person on it is allowing him/her to use their signature. I'm sorry but on Facebook, your little picture identity card doesn't count as a signature. Nothing really counts as a signature unless you sign something, or sign something and make a pdf of your signature to attach to documents. While the creator of this group really has a good agenda their logic leaves me screwing up my face and looking up in wonder. The scariest tid bit of information is that 587,309 members belong to this group and I'm sure more will come and 'sign up'. It's only 2:07 am in the morning and they are 'rallying' for a good cause, but valid petitioning on Facebook....sorry I don't think so.

I'm Still Waiting for Ya Prince Charming......

Dear Reader,

So i was talking with a guy on Sunday and it was very odd how things just clicked. We were finishing each others sentences and feeling the same emotions towards each other. For a moment, ok 2 hours, I thought I had found my prince charming.This guy was really something special, said all the right things, knew how to make a girl feel good.

Then my feelings started to change..... I started to analyze the situation and how we communicated.... I came to the realization that this gentleman was not the one for me.
It was hard. I thought about him a lot. I'd been single for a while so maybe I thought my time had come.

Nope....sorry....try the next stop.
When we spoke the conversation was very intellectual. I get excited when a person wants to have a stimulating (not in the wrong way, ok that would be nice, but i'm thinking the way of making your brain muscle do a bit of work) conversation. I'm a sucker for it. I feed off it sometimes. There was something about how this guy talked to me though. It was more of a talk at you type of style or what i would call preachy. Always checking to make sure i was not bothering him. Very polite, but too polite in a repititive type of way. Monday went by and then Tuesday went by. He called both days and we had only just started talking on Sunday. I felt like this person was checking up on me, or checking in with me. I thought for only talking one, now two days he is calling me all the time, this can't be right. I was strong enough to tell him over the phone that I really did not want to continue conversation with him in hopes of leading to a relationship because I didn't like the way he talked to me. If i talk to a person i want them to be my equal, no more no less. I don't want to tell them my life story and lessons that i have learned the hard way in a mere 2 hour conversation.

So then since i told this fellow that there was no real chance of us getting together it has had me thinking about how i act and treat guys that i am interested in. I more or less jump in with two feet right from the start, for a guy that has to be a scary thing because this person doesn't even know you. I know that's how i felt. It's like the person is asking for a commitment before there is need for one. I also like to be forward with guys, if i like them, i tell them. I make it known that you are the apple of my eye. This too has to be scary for guys because most of the ones i like are either: too young, already taken, or simply not interested in me in anyway. This experience has made me see things from a different view. I am re-thinking my stalker-ish ways and forward approaches. I think subtly is what i need to be. I need to wait for prince charming to show up on his steed and whisk me away. In all this self-recognition i have learned that men don't like being treated like a piece of meat, things will happen when they are ready and until then it is self discovery time.

So out I pull my magnifying glass to examine what I can of myself....and eventually others!

A Literary Treat

Dear Reader,

I have left you a little literary treat on my blog tonight. This piece is new, yet quite powerful. I want to leave with you a saying that is repeating in my head right now : Behind each raw emotion is a very powerful story.


Unspoken Passion
By Sarah Gall

Skin like ice. Eyes of golden honey. Lips the colour of the red rose.

I hear a song and think of you. My eyes well with tears because it's a love that I do not possess. If I did possess it I would wear it like a medal, proudly around my neck. I want to have and to hold. I want all a special kind of love encompasses.

Something always brings me back to you.

What it is I may never know. I should have said all I needed but captivated in your love I couldn't. Caught in the glare of your foreign eyes. Pain is not an answer nor an object. What I want is you. I want to envelope you in my arms like a wool throw. I want to warm that iced skin of yours. I want to softly kiss those plush lips that are dying for a taste. To hear your breath in my ear and warming the back of my neck. To dance both physically and mentally.

Tears of gold stream down my face. Your image is engrained in my brain and your love in my heart. To be with you is a wish, a dream, a fantasy. You know that we have something that could never be spoken about. Maybe that's what makes it so special. No one would dare to understand how I could love someone like you.

Worlds, years, families, may keep us apart, but you see like I do, that we are meant to be together, forever. To place a time limit on something so fragile would be foolish. Forever is a long time but maybe not long enough.

To have you here my long lost love. To possess your mind, body and soul. To be loved because I am different and special. Never, could I forget a feeling like this.

You're on to me. Onto my ideas. To where my heart really is.

WRIT 2900 comes to an end...

Dear Reader,
I am coming to the end of another writing course. WRIT 2900 is taught by James Dewar and Sue Reynolds. Now these two are not your average joe writers. They have knowledge that amounts to thousands of books and experience coming out the ying yang. I have had the pleasure of being a student of theirs once again. I have learned so much: poetry, point of view, narrative structure, are to name a few. A couple of friends took the course with me and each of us have blossomed into our own special writer known for a particular style and edge. Another asset we have developed from being in the course is ways to tone down or enhance that voice of ours that makes us so unique. So I urge you to take a course with these two wonderful writers. Knowledge exudes from their very pores.
Thanks so much James and Sue. You are mentors of mine and I am lucky to know you enough to call you such!

It Keeps Gettin' Better....

Dear Reader,

Things have been quite busy in the last little while. I thought that I would bring you up to date because today is MY BIRTHDAY. I have received a number of birthday wishes from family and friends, and I have made it my job to personally send them a message back and thank them.

WORK
That’s right I currently have a job. I’m working for a company that I used to work for, that specializes in Rapid Prototyping. Some of you may not know what that is but if you look it up you will find out that it’s a special world for techies and there’s some interesting stuff that comes out of this type of work. I would put my company’s website up but I don’t have permission and I don’t know how they would feel knowing I am writing a blog post while at work. All the pressing things that were for me to do I have completed though. It’s nice to be back working and have an income that is regular and coming in. Sometimes it gets stressful but I have stated that I haven’t worked in 2 years so I need things to be easy for the first little bit. I have actually been working here a month, I almost forgot that. I am thinking about re-negotiating in January, more hours and such.

MOO NEWS
This weekend just past we had to give the babies their second set of booster needles. MJ, Nibbs, Mini B and Starlett were fab. I walked them over to the special pen, which is away from their mum’s and they are champion leaders. Mini B and Starlett can still have days where their attitude is quite prominent but this weekend they shone brightly. The kids are also exposed to the bull, Junior, who is their dad. I think they know that he is their daddy because they are very fond of him and spend a lot of time with him. Unfortunately, Junior’s time at the farm will be coming to an end soon because he has to move on to the next herd of ladies. He looks great this year, a lot better then last year. I got some pictures to post so I will try to remember to post them here as well. I’m hoping that we can get Junior again next year because the kids won’t be able to be bred so it will just be their mum’s that need servicing. The year after is when we will need to get a brand new hubba hubba for everyone. Junior will always have a warm place in my heart though because he helped create the wonderful kids that I have now.

THE HILLS
The Hills is turning out to be one of the best seasons ever. I know at the start I was complaining how it was slow and blah blah blah but it’s great. I re-neg all my previous statements. Each character is coming into their own and learning what is necessary as goals and wants and desires. Whitney has been lucky to get a spin-off from the hit tv show to create her own tv show called the City. This follows Whitney as she moves up in the fashion world and out to New York. The Speidi drama is rich as always and with a surprise turn, Heidi lost her job last night because she was drinking on the job. I think it’s going to get steam-ier with everyone.

ANOTHER BIRTHDAY
Just wanted to mention that my best friend, Rebecca celebrated her 26th birthday on October 29, 2008. I was silly and didn’t send her anything for that day but I made sure to make it up to her by posting some videos on YouTube and sending her something which arrived yesterday, Monday November 3, 2008. My other best friend, Meggy has her 26th birthday coming up which is November 9, 2008. Please be sure to drop by her blog http://www.aphoenixlament.blogspot.com/ and give her a happy birthday wish. Then on the 28th of November my friend Sher Bear has her 26th birthday coming up November 28. Happy Birthday Sher, not sure if you read my blog but a big shout out is going to you.

WRIT 2900
This is my writing course that I am currently enrolled in. I think we are in our 6th week of sessions… and I am in love with this course. It is making me push the envelope, experiment with point of view, look at narrative structure, write lyrical poetry and much more great stuff. The teachers are James Dewar and Sue Reynolds, who if you have read my blog taught the fabulous Erotic Writing workshops that I participated in. This course has nothing to do with erotic writing but it is well rounded and focusing on the rules of writing so that when we know them, then we can break them! I have learned so much and will continue to do so. This course is great and I am learning so much more then I thought I would. This course also brought some of my fellow colleagues from the WRIT 1900 to the forum and it is great to be in class with them again. They too are excelling in their own ways and developing a voice they can call their own.

RIDING LESSONS
My one student, a young girl the age of 9 completed her set of 6 (½) hour lessons, which was given to her as a birthday present from her Grandpa. She truly enjoyed the experience and got to test out both my small ponies, Stewart (on lease) and Casper. She was so smart as to want to switch riding them between lessons because she said that she liked them both and didn’t want one to get more attention then the other. This gave me warm tinglies because she really cared about the ponies, and that’s the first step. I have since been approached by a girl to give lessons and we had our first lesson on Sunday, November 2, 2008. The student really liked how I accommodated her and her horse and made exercises (on the spot) suitable for what her training needs are. She plans to be showing in the spring, and I hope I am her coach for that because I would really like that. If you are interested in lessons please leave me a message and I will get back to you asap.

Even though the posts have been sparse I am trying to bring you up to speed in each one. I know that I have to get back to doing it regularly. For my next post I think that I should do some fun facts or something. Give you faithfuls a laugh!!!

Mish Mosh Monday

Dear Reader,
I miss writing to you greatly so I decided this morn that I would post you a little ditty. My mum is on holidays in Edmonton, but is currently in Jasper. My dad was a complete dick last night...no surprise there I guess. Because of that happening I have changed the thingy under my name on msn to “to be or not to be an asshole”. Yes it's hamlet-esque but that's ok, Shakespeare wrote a ton of good stuff so why not remember him by a quote from one of his fab plays. As you can tell from the start of this post it is going to be a post with a bunch of mish mosh cause I am just going to pour my brain on to the computer screen for your pleasure. I'm not even going to put paragraphs or anything. Today is mish mosh monday.BIGGER, FASTER, STRONGER is a documentary that I watched yesterday. It was a great movie because it brought light to how American's consistently depend on steriods to keep themselves big and muscle-y, like Arnold, Lou Ferrigno, Jose Conseco, Mark McGwire, Barry Bonds, Ben Johnson, Sly Stallone, and many other celebs that you would know. It was very informative because as serious as steriods is, it doesn't kill as many as the FDA, and other organizations say. It kills 3 people every year, while alcohol, hard, drugs, car accidents and other things kill thousands upon thousands of people. Very interesting and I totally thought the documentary host CHRISTOPHER BELL was hot and he was 1000000 times better then Morgan Spurlock (SuperSize Me). The weather last night was completely crumby too. There were thunder bolts and lightening crashes a lot and then came the buckets of rain. What a crappy night, it should have been predicted though because yesterday was very cold and yucky all day. The book I am currently reading is THANKS FOR THE MEMORIES by Cecila Ahearn (wrote PS I LOVE YOU), it's a very interesting book. A woman ends up getting a blood transfusion when she loses her baby and the donor's blood has come with memories of his family and life and job. So not only is her mind filled with her own life's disasters, she has to deal with his too. She actually goes on a quest to find the donor that saved her life. Interesting concept. Haven't finished it yet but I'm more then ½ way through and it's good. In my downloading travels, I happened to come across an album that was all burlesque music. I have listened to some of it and surprisingly, it is quite good. It's sort of like electronica but not quite, but I find it very interesting. Let's say that i am considering getting a pole for my apartment so that i can work out and get hot! (I know that's not really burlesque but ....). FYI= It's monopoly days at mcyaks so to all you die-hards, try and participate the prizes are really good and I wish you well and I'm hoping I get some luck too so that I can fun during monopoly days! Yes, it's my most favourite time at McYaks ever!
Signing off,
10 / 4 Good buddies