Dear Reader,
People.........hmmmmmm........why do certain people believe they are entitled to everything on a silver platter. In honesty it makes me sick. Then there's the immaturity level of some of the people that think they are my friends. Why do I feel that certain people think they are my friend when really they are just thinking of how to use me and benefit throughout the package. A certain person comes to mind, actually a few people come to mind. Set ups and fake messages lead to trouble, but more importantly to bitchassness as Diddy would say. I need to do a serious people purge in my life, yet again. Get rid of all the users and liars and anything that might remotely be toxic. I need to think more of myself and if I can dispose of these people then I will be heading a step in the right direction.
1.Fuck those that think they are better then anyone else.
2.Fuck those that have stood me up time and time again.
3.I love me and I better starting showing it.
Love yourself reader, look back on the post i made that said we are all perfect in our own little worlds. That is true but don't let it get to your head, those are inner thoughts said by your inside voice. It's ok to love yourself just don't turn into a cocky asshole.
Monday, March 30, 2009
Monday, March 16, 2009
I am woman, hear me ROAR
Dear Reader,
I am going to tell you about a situation that has been occuring and if you would like to give feedback please do.
There is this guy that I find really sexy, and the whole deal. He's got some major flaws though and being shallow and a user are the top 2. This guy comes over a fair bit but only to parttake of particular extra circular activities but nothing sexual which is a shame because that's what i really want. As much as I like this dude and think he's a babe-ola, the user feeling is getting to me. I asked two people who i consider quite close about the situation. One said that i was just being used for my apartment and the other said the same but added that because i think the dude is hot i am letting him get away with everything. It's starting to bother the second person, and he asked me why i haven't stood up and straight hottie straight. I value these two people's opinions a lot. Yet again I have a toxic relationship in my front yard and only now am starting to realize it needs to be dealt with. I need to say Listen, either we be friends and whatever, or there's nothing. I can't let him use me as a taxi or chauffeur just because he doesn't want to walk home. I need to remove my thoughts from the situation and start using my brain instead of my sexual organs.
I was talking to another friend about being used by people and it's a “Damned if you do, damned if you don't.” People nowadays just do whatever they can to get ahead and forget about all the people they have to step on.
As of this minute, I must take control and re-kindle my self esteem and confidence that I am letting this person take away bit by bit.
I am going to tell you about a situation that has been occuring and if you would like to give feedback please do.
There is this guy that I find really sexy, and the whole deal. He's got some major flaws though and being shallow and a user are the top 2. This guy comes over a fair bit but only to parttake of particular extra circular activities but nothing sexual which is a shame because that's what i really want. As much as I like this dude and think he's a babe-ola, the user feeling is getting to me. I asked two people who i consider quite close about the situation. One said that i was just being used for my apartment and the other said the same but added that because i think the dude is hot i am letting him get away with everything. It's starting to bother the second person, and he asked me why i haven't stood up and straight hottie straight. I value these two people's opinions a lot. Yet again I have a toxic relationship in my front yard and only now am starting to realize it needs to be dealt with. I need to say Listen, either we be friends and whatever, or there's nothing. I can't let him use me as a taxi or chauffeur just because he doesn't want to walk home. I need to remove my thoughts from the situation and start using my brain instead of my sexual organs.
I was talking to another friend about being used by people and it's a “Damned if you do, damned if you don't.” People nowadays just do whatever they can to get ahead and forget about all the people they have to step on.
As of this minute, I must take control and re-kindle my self esteem and confidence that I am letting this person take away bit by bit.
Friday, March 13, 2009
I'm Back!!!!!!!!
Dear Reader,
A long time it has been. I went on vacay to the Cayman Islands, which I now refer to as Paradise. So many things to see and do there. I wanted to try a lot of new things, ex. Various types of food, go around the shops, and mainly have fun. I was lucky to get a right hand drive automatic vehicle which I proudly named Civy, because he was a 4 banger Honda Civic. By the end of the trip I liked driving him so much that I would consider getting one for home but that's not going to happen. Food I tried was incredible for a picky eater such as myself. I tried Brazilian, Indian, various types of seafood, and a favourite restaurant that we frequented was Ala Kebab. For this I have my best friend to thank, if it weren't for her letting me stay with her and experience such great tastes and flavours, I could have very well lived on Pizza Hut and Burger King (by the ocean) for the duration of the trip. Memoirable moments include: the trip to the turtle farm, visiting Hell, meeting new people, dancing and partying like a rockstar, and last but not least getting to see my dear friend in her element living a lifestyle that would make most jealous. I will admit that Hell was a bit odd, and there was something about the karma that was exuded from the place, but it was a great sight to see just the same. The weather was completely and utterly incredible, it only rained the last day and the amount was equal to that of a light spit. I never thought or considered how safe I would feel on a Carribean Island, there have been some bad stories in the news as of recent but it was almost like being at home. Sure the stray dogs was upsettig because I love my canine friends a lot but that's just the way it is down there. I got another tattoo, which if you are a hardcore follower of my blog, you won't find that surprising at all. It's a palm tree with “CAYMAN 2009” underneath. I had to get it named and dated because it was my first big trip off the continent and I will always remember it now, no matter what. I can't see myself forgetting it though because it was fabu. Two observations that I made, one, the menthol cigarettes for women are called Vogues and they are very much like a skinny Popeye Candy Cigarette. I was a trooper and tried them several times but they were no comparison to my brand from home. Second, the island is party central. Everyone drinks, everyone mingles and dances, and mainly everyone is constantly aiming for a good time. Sure I met some guys that would be a bomb to do ANYTHING with but they were off limits for good reasons. The sad part is that the trip went by so fast, it was like I arrived and was just getting ready to leave. I left with my girlfriend singing to me the song LUCKY which I am constantly listening to here. A parting gift that I will never forget. A good time was had by all, and yet again I send a ginormous thank you out to my dear friend that let me stay with her and experience her fun and different lifestyle.
-over and out
~S~
A long time it has been. I went on vacay to the Cayman Islands, which I now refer to as Paradise. So many things to see and do there. I wanted to try a lot of new things, ex. Various types of food, go around the shops, and mainly have fun. I was lucky to get a right hand drive automatic vehicle which I proudly named Civy, because he was a 4 banger Honda Civic. By the end of the trip I liked driving him so much that I would consider getting one for home but that's not going to happen. Food I tried was incredible for a picky eater such as myself. I tried Brazilian, Indian, various types of seafood, and a favourite restaurant that we frequented was Ala Kebab. For this I have my best friend to thank, if it weren't for her letting me stay with her and experience such great tastes and flavours, I could have very well lived on Pizza Hut and Burger King (by the ocean) for the duration of the trip. Memoirable moments include: the trip to the turtle farm, visiting Hell, meeting new people, dancing and partying like a rockstar, and last but not least getting to see my dear friend in her element living a lifestyle that would make most jealous. I will admit that Hell was a bit odd, and there was something about the karma that was exuded from the place, but it was a great sight to see just the same. The weather was completely and utterly incredible, it only rained the last day and the amount was equal to that of a light spit. I never thought or considered how safe I would feel on a Carribean Island, there have been some bad stories in the news as of recent but it was almost like being at home. Sure the stray dogs was upsettig because I love my canine friends a lot but that's just the way it is down there. I got another tattoo, which if you are a hardcore follower of my blog, you won't find that surprising at all. It's a palm tree with “CAYMAN 2009” underneath. I had to get it named and dated because it was my first big trip off the continent and I will always remember it now, no matter what. I can't see myself forgetting it though because it was fabu. Two observations that I made, one, the menthol cigarettes for women are called Vogues and they are very much like a skinny Popeye Candy Cigarette. I was a trooper and tried them several times but they were no comparison to my brand from home. Second, the island is party central. Everyone drinks, everyone mingles and dances, and mainly everyone is constantly aiming for a good time. Sure I met some guys that would be a bomb to do ANYTHING with but they were off limits for good reasons. The sad part is that the trip went by so fast, it was like I arrived and was just getting ready to leave. I left with my girlfriend singing to me the song LUCKY which I am constantly listening to here. A parting gift that I will never forget. A good time was had by all, and yet again I send a ginormous thank you out to my dear friend that let me stay with her and experience her fun and different lifestyle.
-over and out
~S~
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