Ramblings of a Highly Allergic and Sneezing Sarah

This is a note that a friend passed on to me, and in turn i am passing it on to you:
How grateful would you say you are? Did you know that your gratitude level can directly affect your wealth and happiness? Now that may sound strange, especially in light of our current economy, but I've seen it time and time again in my work with clients. I have guided many clients whose charts I felt displayed a need for gratitude to bring about positive change in their lives. And I'm happy to say that those who took my advice to heart have reported a positive shift in their lives and a boost in the things they view as good, including increased wealth. Even financial experts and abundance speakers agree that gratitude is a vital component for increasing wealth and success. This basic premise of gratitude is to acquire a more positive and receptive state of being. Here is how it works. You begin by being grateful for the smaller and more immediate things like having a place to live, food to eat, and a car to get around, etc. By placing yourself in a positive frame of mind through gratitude, you open yourself to all the good things the universe has to offer. That is when you can actually begin to attract good things to you, and most of us could certainly benefit from this idea right now. As you become more comfortable with the positive things that basic gratitude brings, you will likely find yourself feeling grateful for even bigger things like being alive, learning hard lessons, your past mistakes, the freedom to make choices in life, and more. This type of gratitude catapults you even further along the path to a successful and happy life. That's because you begin to lose your fear of change or loss and you begin to develop a deep appreciation for the exciting adventure that life truly is. Once you reach the point where you remain in a constant state of gratitude, you will become a magnet that attracts the positive things to you . . . the things that resonate with who you are and what you desire to do with your life. So, if you are ready to enjoy more happiness and wealth, I challenge you to take some time every day this week to note those things that you are grateful for, from the smallest little gifts to the bigger ones. And may you attract the most wonderful and beneficial things into your life.

So i am on a dating site and i have to say that if i read the words "I am an open book" one more time i think i might just go bananas. Why are guys expecting women to do all the questioning, why can't they just be a little more open and post it on your profile. Another peeve is when guys use improper grammar, punctuation or spelling. This bothers me because it raises these few questions in my mind: Why does everything have to be LOL or like short form? Is this person illiterate because they can't spell worth a damn? What is the issue here? Yes you may be thinking wow sarah that's a little over the top but how many profiles do i have to see that are just malarky. I guess i am a bad critic because i am a writer and stuff like that gets to me.

My calves did awesome today. We were able to work with them instead of them running around like march hares. I was able to pet them all and get them used to human touch. Clinton and Stacy were not so fond of the petting but Gem got used to it and Taylor and Summer know what the deal is. I think that Taylor is going to be a champion calf. He's built like Mini B but he's getting lighter each day, more like Bigguh. All the calves will be good though because we will make sure that they are perfect just like the one year olds!

Yesterday i went golfing and had another stellar round. I shot 40 on a 36 par. Yes, i only played nine holes but that's alright i am doing really well. I am told that i shoot long for a lady which makes me feel well. I also broke out another club, my nine iron. So far so good with that club, just need to figure out where is the proper distance to use it and stuff.

My best friend Becs, is visiting from the Cayman Islands and I can't wait to see her. I am waiting for her to come over right now. It's been a long time since I've seen her and we have been missing each other on the phone. That's alright though i guarantee we will make up for lost time. Welcome home, and take some time to relax!

For My Best Friend

So, my best friend is coming home for a visit from the beautiful, paradise-ical Cayman Islands. She has lived there for a year on the Tuesday just past and she is climbing both the social and career ladders. I am very proud of her and i thought it would be nice to share a poem that i wrote today for her, with you. Hope you like it!

Your arrival is coming near,
Just wanted to say i love you dear.

Can't wait to spend some time with you,
Imagine all the crazy stuff we'll do.

Just like old times,
All fun and games like it's a crime.

It will be so nice to have you back,
And get our convo's back on track.

I'm sure your fam can hardly wait,
For the exciting Gubba arrival date.

The Gall clan is excited too,
All this hustle and bustle just for you.

It must make you feel great,
To learn that you make us get in this state.

Various forms and types of care,
Just for you, so beware!

Your time here is short so make it the best,
Relax and take a load off of your chest.

For you awaits the biggest hug,
From your friend the SG bug!

Sending you love everyday,
Glad to see you coming my way.

That's the story, time to end,
For you are my very very best friend!

The Evolution of Sarah

I was productive today. Washed my sheets and my heating pad, made brownies this morn, made dinner this eve, did dishes this morn, and painted my nails a funk-a-delic yellow while keeping the black artsy thumb on the left and ring finger on the right.

So I sit here staring at the wall on a Monday night.

I randomly text a person from my past and he says that he'll get back to me when it's dark and his chores are done.

Did some research on a new drug called MDMA, that a few people i know are dropping like it's hot. You know i'm crazy but i'm not crazy enough to do that shit. This is a rave drug that has the ingredients of herione and some other compounds in it. My question is this, why at the age of 19 do these people find it cool to take drugs such as MDMA, Special K, and snort crack. Do they not realize the harm they are applying to their bodies. The MDMA keeps them awake and fidgetting constantly. Having to keep moving they chew the inside of their mouths to the point of bleeding. All this for a rush, a high that is like no other. Sorry folks i have heard that before and i'm not buying it. The side effects is a list that is a rolling scroll and the effects of withdrawl sound nothing short of horrible.

Now when i was 19 i drank, 6.5 years sober now. That was my thing though and yes, i was depressed. Many a time i tried to drink my problems and issues away....was it right...at the time it felt so. Afterwards, not so much. Many people ask me are you sure you don't drink? Yes, i'm positive. Wouldn't let the stuff touch my lips ever again, i made that a personal vow and i intend to keep it. Really though, lets be honest...when i was drinking did i gain anything from it? Yeah I danced better and forgot about the trivial problems that life threw me but they still came back. They didn't go away indefinitely. Family issues were still present. Boyfriends were still there causing the drama and i was feeding off it. It was like my own personal drug.

Today is different though. I live my life drama free now. When i go on a date i make sure to state my point and case that i am drama free and that's the way it is. Guys nod and say yeah me too but it makes me wonder when they start making sarcastic comments and rittling me with nasty words. They expect me to react, that's what they are looking for...a reaction. Try as i might, i can't give into their feeble attempts to make themselves feel better. Sure my dad can push my buttons and send me off the deep end, he was quite successful this weekend but i am getting to a point where i am starting and wanting to say NO. I make sure that I have a good belly laugh everyday. My stomach may hurt after but it's worth it. I am in a better mental state and frame of mind then i have been for years. I care less and less what people think of me as i evolve into my own person. Friends are few and fair between but the ones i have are genuine and i wouldn't trade them for the world. A very close friend i owe a great big hug and thanks to because she made me see the light. Now, as i am growing into a person that is stronger by the minute, i realize that life is too short and that you should

"Smile and laugh everyday for it may be your last".

Thanks to everyone that has supported and continues to support me. With out such backers i may not be changing into the person i am today.

Ah.....the dating world... it can be quite strange!

Dating...oh dating....

I went on a date last night. The guy I went with was very nice, classy, and oldschool, but he was my age. What can I say, there was a click, but not the right one. I felt like we nattered at each other the entire time. Back and forth, back and forth. We are both sarcastic so it was just one giant sarcasm fest. He was really nice and paid for dinner, and i was good i offered to pay for my half but, it just doesn't seem worth it. If we are like that now, imagine what a relationship would be! With all that sarcasm it would surely lead to drama and that's not something i want in my life. He also made some jokes about leaving me with $0.25 for a cab so that I could get a ride home. That's not the most classy thing in the world. Sure he's met some weirdos on the internet dating site that we use but frig you don't know me from a whole in the ground and the topic was consistently brought back to me being crazy, another thing i didn't like. This guy says he's laid back and relaxed, but to be so sarcastic and cutting all the time.... man, that's drama i don't want or need. He also made some other comments which i thought could be interpreted by me, quite badly. I didn't show completely that i was not impressed but my jaw dropped a fair bit leaving a gaping hole in my face, so if he didn't notice that then i don't know what to say. He kinda bawked at giving me a hug too, who does that!

Lesson Learned = you can talk to a person for a few times and it be alright but when it is actual person to person contact the real them comes out, and it may not be so nice or fun as they sounded on the phone.

Just my luck...

Well I am a very lucky person right now.

I have 2 guys that are absolutely different and wonderful at the same time.

Guy A is pretty cool and is local. He's attentive, wants me to try new things, has a great sexual appetite. He is younger then me but not by much, which is a surprise because i never thought i would do anything with someone younger then me. He's mature though so that's what makes him different. He knows fashion and i think that's a major turn on! Likes Juicy Couture, Gucci and D&G. Now that's style. He wears pink golf shirts, and any guy that wears pink and looks sexy is on the fashion train to wonderful.

Guy B is differrent by the fact that he's outside and over programmed, so our time together is short and few between. He also lives further away. That's ok though, we have to be living our lives. He has the biggest smile, and the bluest of eyes. Witty and sarcastic and he's a really good guy! Likes to wear board shorts and t-shirts, very casual type of style and wears skate shoes that look so comfortable. In his innocence, he will not get a tattoo and he is very sure that's the way it's going to be. I like that innocent quality of him.

This week i have been lucky enough to get attention from both my boys. It's nice though because they are different and yet they have some similarities. They both are:
-romantics
-into good music
-have their own sense of style
-babelicious in their own special ways
-good kissers

How lucky am i? The best of both worlds, have my cake and enjoy eating it too! Good times at Chez Sarah!

erotic poetry

he gives himself a yank
i give him a spank

he gives himself a pull
i suck on him til my mouth is full

he gives me grasp
what he does makes me gasp

he gives me ass
i give him sass

he gives me satisfaction
i give him plenty of sexual action

he gives me sweet kisses
i give sex like a mistress

he doesn't know what he's got
i, eventually, will be the jackpot

he gives me the tingles
i lick him and he shingles

Get A Job.... Ah yeah, thanks i'm trying....arghhhh

Well today is going to be a bit of a rant.

I'm tired :
-of people using me like a cash cow (this stops now)
-of people owing me money and just forgetting about it (this stops now)
-of people treating those close to me like dirt
-of taking any derogatory treatment or conversation directed at me (this stops now)

Why do people feel that when they borrow money that you are like a giving tree and you will just sprout some 100 dollar bills on your next branch to replace what they have taken. These particular people need to be more responsible for their actions and not just forget about the favour i did for them. And then talking back to me and giving me lip when i call to collect some money. For F'''s sake why should i have to bare the burden when they promised me that i would get the money back. Yeah i know times are hard but don't tell me to get a job and support myself... i'm trying, handed out 20 resumes on friday and applied to 5 online.

Geez, damn those freakin' free-loaders!

meh!

Today = high humidity and digusting heat. Boo earns!

Today= Jason Mraz concert....Live is Wonderful!

So this morning i decided to watch a movie while i consumed my tasty breakfast of 2 bowls of Alphabits cereal and Lactaid Milk. The movie that jumped out to me was FALLING DOWN with Michael Douglas. Now i have already laughed several times at the film and it isn't even half an hour in. This attorney decides that he is going to change his day by leaving his car in a line up of delayed traffic and trying to make his way home. Along the way he feels it is his personal journey to teach foreigners the 'proper' ways of America. Every time he has a run in with someone he gathers up a different weapon. He started with none, then graduated to a short baseball bat, then from there he graduated to a switch blade (which he cannot get over how quick and cool the bad guys looked using it), later in the film he ends up parading around with a shot gun! I would say that's a decent graduation of weapons if i don't say so myself!

Then i started pondering how i would react if that was me, and you know what the conclusion i came to was.... I would probably be the same way! My anger would just make me a ticking time bomb, i would want to teach people a lesson for disrespecting the territory they live in, i would like to be tactful and when someone wanted my brief case (just like Michael Douglas did...) i would give it to them in a smash over the head action. There was no description on how they would like the brief case just that they wanted it. Lesson Learned= you should ask or create terms on how you want things or you are going to get them in a way least expected.

Last night was couples golf with an Asian theme. It was great. We had a lot of fun and people really made the effort with their costumes. Dad and I went as rice paddy workers which was interesting because i even made the effort to get the special hats. I think that i will be using my hat for more then just the average things, might even turn into a great grass cutting hat since it's so wide and the coverage is good. Pics are too come, no worries you will get to see dad and i in our asian glory!

Arghhhh!

When i look back on my life in 10 mins, 10 hours, or 10 years, I hope the most dominate memory is my parents telling me “You're going backwards.” I know they are trying to help and be supportive and all that good parent stuff but please that phrase is so freakin' negative. I want to say that if I hear it once more i'm going to turn into a frog, or a pumpkin but that would probably make things worse. My parents are great and i'm not saying they aren't, but doesn't there come a time when boundaries become the session of the hour and letting go is apart of it. Only children, like myself, can understand because let's face it we are all our parents have. There's no older/younger sibling to blame things on, no other children to divert the parents watchful eye. That's ok though because being only children we have learned things that others may not. We have learned to make the perfect puppy dog eyes so that everything is instantly forgiven. We know how to make a smile big enough so that we get that extra scoop of ice cream. We even know how to make a family holiday better by joking around and making an ass of ourselves because we would want to do that to another person, and we don't have a spare person to rely on.

I hear my parents, I really do. I'm getting the message in stereo. Alas, I will receive how I want to and even if that's not to your liking please just be thankful i didn't switch station as soon as your emergency message came on the air....I listened. I am starting to see how to jump that last hurdle of the race and start making headway, but i am going to do it in my own good time when i am ready. I want to make a small effort each day so that I can add them all up to one gi-normous act and all will be magically whisked away and trouble will now be set straight.

As Julia Child said when asked what she loved to do by her loving, husband Paul

“Eat!”

And then i reach for my bowl of freshly chilled moose tracks ice cream, from the freezer!

i just wrote this.......

Sitting listen to Carrie Underwood belt out Lessons Learned from the speakers on my laptop. Bopping my head to the music and really feeling the beat. Thoughts start to spin around in a generic haze. The past is coming clear and sure... i fucked up.... but i`m here to learn from the mistakes. Boyfriends who broke my heart. Friends i have lost along the way. I`m here to say that i have lived it and i`m way different now. I am freer, dislike fewer, and overall, drama free. Then i start trying to ponder up some great dates i am hoping to come. Four wheeling, coffee/ice cream, dinner, dancing, and adventure is my middle name by the way, so i am open to suggestions. Friday is golf night, can't wait, hope i have a good game. The hum of the air conditioner fades into the background. The cats have escaped to the balcony to lounge on the furniture. It's a simple kind of life here at Chez Sarah. We party all the time and chill when we want. No routines no rules. My eyes start to close and i sway with the music. Zoe schlepps around the corner to come in and sit upon her perch in the kitty condo. A burning yearning happens in the bottom of my stomach. I want something cool and tasty to quench my appetite. Darkness surrounds me and i like it. It comforts me. I feel safe.Then I challenge myself about the future. The people I will meet, the cultures I will experience, the ones i will love. Even though i know they may break my heart i am still going to allow myself to experience what it has to offer. I may cry. I may scream, but i will be better for learning and going through it. Like a big, warm hug I start to think of my very dear friends and family and us giving a giant hug to each other with our invisible arms of support. They will always be there even if they aren't right there with you. Music change! Jason Mraz's soft voice sings me a melody that is one of my favourite songs. I imagine myself on a warm, sunny beach and the water is coming up and splashing my body with the warm salt solution of the ocean.The sun is so bright that i am raching to grab my favourite pair of Lauren Conrad glasses to protect my corneas. A big wave rolls it's way to the beach and the current gradually pushes my body deeper in to the sand for a moment. Drops rain down, some graze my lips as they make their way down to their target. A browned body is heading towards me, and he is gorgeous. Sunkist hair, muscley arms, and the grayist of eyes. Captivated by the movement towards me and the wonderful environment I smile to myself and think “That's right baby, just right!”

Would you want to date me if the interrogation was like this......probably not

Lapper........."down at the speedway....saying tragically hip things" says:
well ask me anything...i'm an open book
Sarah says:
how about you give me the low down on jay. like a biography.
how old?
Lapper........."down at the speedway....saying tragically hip things" says:
25
Sarah says:
when was the last time you got your hair cut
Lapper........."down at the speedway....saying tragically hip things" says:
3 weeks ago
Sarah says:
what do you look for in a girl?
do you laugh often?
Lapper........."down at the speedway....saying tragically hip things" says:
i look for a sense og humour, down to earth, easy going. sexual, and yes i'm alwaysl aughing
Sarah says:
most important question ever: are you a boobguy or an assman?
Lapper........."down at the speedway....saying tragically hip things" says:
boob guy...i love boobs and playing with them
Sarah says:
what pattern do you like
Lapper........."down at the speedway....saying tragically hip things" says:
stripe
Sarah says:
do you like to go really fast or really slow
what are your plans for the weekend
if i asked you to go to function with me on sat night would you?
what type of movie to do you hate the most
Lapper........."down at the speedway....saying tragically hip things" says:
both are good...slow to start then fast thne slow....gotta have variety. And no plans for the weekend I'm on call for work...and I have no idea what function is
hate chick flicks
Sarah says:
like if i asked you to go to a concert
Lapper........."down at the speedway....saying tragically hip things" says:
i'd rather hang out with you first make sure we click you know
Sarah says:
corset or boustier
ok that sounds cool!
Lapper........."down at the speedway....saying tragically hip things" says:
boutier
Sarah says:
nice, very nice choice. Do you like a girl that is willing to grab your ass in public? pDa?
what are your kissing policies for the first date?
Lapper........."down at the speedway....saying tragically hip things" says:
ya i do...i'm very sexual and up for anything anywhere
no policies...whatever your feeling go with the flow as long as it;s mutual and safe
Sarah says:
do you like to take control or sit back
Lapper........."down at the speedway....saying tragically hip things" says:
like to be in control
Sarah says:
do you want to find qualities in a girl that might make her girlfriend material for you
are you judgemental on the size of the girl in question?
do you have any recreational based habits
Lapper........."down at the speedway....saying tragically hip things" says:
potential gf material ya but not wanting to rush thingfs..and no i don;t judge as long as the girl is confident in herself, and i smoke pot is the only habit...but i dont do it that often
Sarah says:
do you have any weird fetishes
Lapper........."down at the speedway....saying tragically hip things" says:
just public places the odd time
Sarah says:
what's your fav colour
Lapper........."down at the speedway....saying tragically hip things" says:
fav color is green
Sarah says:
which is your fav season
Lapper........."down at the speedway....saying tragically hip things" says:
winter
Sarah says:
vacay in the summer or vacay in the winter
name the artist of the last song you heard
Lapper........."down at the speedway....saying tragically hip things" says:
winter so i can snowmobile, and last song i heard was by siblime
sublime
Sarah says:
if you could be any letter in the alphabet, what and why?
how do you like be interrogated?
last website you visited?
Lapper........."down at the speedway....saying tragically hip things" says:
i would be i...cause I am myslef nobosy else..and i dont mind at all
Sarah says:
do you know another word that has various meanings and spellings like THERE, THEIR, THEY'RE?
are you a smooth operator or like a construction worker and bummpy
Lapper........."down at the speedway....saying tragically hip things" says:
:D
Sarah says:
name a famous painter
Lapper........."down at the speedway....saying tragically hip things" says:
van gouhh...shame about his ear, here and hear, sea and see, and i work construction..so rough hands
Sarah says:
a plump ass or voluptuous breasts?
Lapper........."down at the speedway....saying tragically hip things" says:
voluptuos breats
Sarah says:
the girl you are with has _______ hair
Lapper........."down at the speedway....saying tragically hip things" says:
nice
Sarah says:
what's your fav type of food
Lapper........."down at the speedway....saying tragically hip things" says:
sushi or steak
Sarah says:
can you cook
Lapper........."down at the speedway....saying tragically hip things" says:
yes i can
Sarah says:
more then a box of kraft dinner, a real sufficient meal?\
Lapper........."down at the speedway....saying tragically hip things" says:
yes
Sarah says:
what would it be?
do you like korean bbq?
Lapper........."down at the speedway....saying tragically hip things" says:
ya it;s ok...and i cna cook a variety of things
Sarah says:
what new food culture could you introduce me to ?
Lapper........."down at the speedway....saying tragically hip things" says:
umm japanese food or real chinese food
Sarah says:
what do you prefer savoury or sweet
last time you had sex
Lapper........."down at the speedway....saying tragically hip things" says:
savoury, about 3 months ago
Sarah says:
was it with a girl friend, random, or sex date
Lapper........."down at the speedway....saying tragically hip things" says:
sex date
Sarah says:
if you had a choice of watching a chick flick or a documentary on baking various desserts
Lapper........."down at the speedway....saying tragically hip things" says:
chick flick
Sarah says:
cuddling or fondling
Lapper........."down at the speedway....saying tragically hip things" says:
both
Sarah says:
are you a sloppy kisser
Lapper........."down at the speedway....saying tragically hip things" says:
qall depeneds on the mood and what's going on
Sarah says:
name of the last movie you saw that you were embarrassed that you watched
Lapper........."down at the speedway....saying tragically hip things" says:
the notebook
Sarah says:
ok any questions for me? n
Lapper........."down at the speedway....saying tragically hip things" says:
anything else?
Sarah says:
not at this time, do you have any questions for me ?

random thoughts and ideas

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