FUCK Those That Think They Are Better Than You.....

Dear Reader,

I am not in a happy mood. I have been antagonized yet again on my weekend and I therefore dislike my father even more then last weekend. He lives in total double standard land and I am beginning to hate him once again in my life. When I was younger my dad and I never got along, we hated each other, hard to believe but true. Never talked much or anything, then when I started dating guys and trying to separate myself from the, what was once a, family unit the proverbial shit hit the fan. What little A conversation we had was spent yelling, cursing and dispising each other. I have always wanted the dad that I could talk to and he could talk to me. Then when I decided I could not stand my mum's extracircular relationship I chose to go live him. For the first time ever we got to know each other. We shared certain tid bits and got a better father/daughter relationship. Now, since I have been out on my own for a year, he has gone back to the self serving asshole he was before. He never supported me moving out on my own and he probably still doesn't. He degrades me constantly and now that I am getting a back bone and starting to stick up for myself he doesn't like it... boo hoo. I didn't like not having a good relationship with my father but that's what I got stuck with and any changes have been made by me not so many have been made by him. So after all this I begin to think to myself, how worth it is having a relationship with a parent that doesn't really care how they treat you or are so unsupportive that it is painful? I have pondered this a lot this morning and I am beginning to think that it's not worth the time, effort nor sadness. I have been so anxious when having to see my dad this weekend that I have reverted to having that calming cigarette before having to deal with the tyrant. Bad habit I know and eventually I will quit having my occassional smoke but it's pretty sad that I have to revert to that just to get calm so I can deal with him. His selfish attitude disgusts me, his double standard ways frustrate me, and most of all his degrading language towards me angers me to the point of violence sometimes. I have to get to a place where I can handle such attacks on my self esteem and confidence and not even blink an eye. Unfortunately that is not the case at the moment but I am working my ass off to get there. Tonight was also supposed to be my going away dinner before I leave for Cayman Islands, which is happening in 5 days. If you really didn't want to spend time with me to have a going away dinner then why would you go to all the trouble of planning it and then being such a shit that I don't even want to share the same last name as you let alone area code. Just be honest and say I don't want to do anything with you. As much as the truth may hurt sometimes it's still the truth. Another issue that my dad has, telling the truth. Out of everyone and everything in my life the thing that I do not appreciate nor tolerate is lying/liars. My dad does both and he twists his story to fit what best suits at the time. FUCK LIARS, FUCK ASSHOLES, and last but not least, FUCK THOSE THAT TREAT YOU LIKE CRAP.

The Forgotten, Classic Language

Dear Reader,

I was talking with a very good friend and we were discussing language that isn't used and should be. By that we mean that the younger generations of today, do not use or know about such a classical, meaningful and special language. My friend was to contribute to this but he hasn't gotten back to me yet, hopefully he will post his word suggestions in a comment.

FYI – a little note, some of these words relate to the perfection that is within dear reader, embrace it and enjoy!

Here are some of the forgotten language:

PREPOSTEROUS
completely contrary to nature, reason, or common sense; absurd; senseless; utterly foolish: a preposterous tale.

DUODENUM
the first portion of the small intestine, from the stomach to the jejunum.

QUORUM
the number of members of a group or organization required to be present to transact business legally, usually a majority.

ABOMINABLE
1.
repugnantly hateful; detestable; loathsome: an abominable crime.
2.
very unpleasant; disagreeable: The weather was abominable last week.
3.
very bad, poor, or inferior: They have abominable taste in

GALLIVANT
1.
to wander about, seeking pleasure or diversion; gad.
2.
to go about with members of the opposite sex.

WEND
verb (used with object)
1.
to pursue or direct (one's way).
–verb (used without object)
2.
to proceed or go.

CALAMITY
1.
a great misfortune or disaster, as a flood or serious injury.
2.
grievous affliction; adversity; misery: the calamity of war.

GRATIFYING
tending to gratify; giving or causing satisfaction; pleasing.

GRANDEUR
1.
the quality or state of being impressive or awesome: the grandeur of the Rocky Mountains.
2.
the quality or state of being lofty or elevated in conception or treatment: the grandeur of a prose style.
3.
the quality or state of being exalted in some deliberate way: the grandeur of a royal court.
4.
an instance of something that is grand: the grandeurs of Rembrandt's paintings.

SPLENDOR/SPLENDOUR
1.
brilliant or gorgeous appearance, coloring, etc.; magnificence: the splendor of the palace.
2.
an instance or display of imposing pomp or grandeur: the splendor of the coronation.
3.
grandeur; glory; brilliant distinction: the splendor of ancient Greek architecture.
4.
great brightness; brilliant light or luster.
–verb (used with object)
5.
to make splendid by decorating lavishly; adorn.
–verb (used without object)
6.
to move or proceed with splendor, grandeur, or pomp.

VALIANT
1.
boldly courageous; brave; stout-hearted: a valiant soldier.
2.
marked by or showing bravery or valor; heroic: to make a valiant effort.
3.
worthy; excellent.

The Inner You Is Perfect

Dear Reader,

I realize that I was supposed to write you yesterday but my writing mojo was not active, hence I am writing you today.

When you think of yourself, do you consider yourself perfect? It's not wrong to do so, it actually is a way of boosting your self esteem and confidence. For example, in my own little world I consider myself perfect, I do not project the cocky bastard attitude so that is what separates me from the egotistical people. I just carry that idea around with me in the back of my head. People that decide to degrade, bash my integrity and pride, this is my secret weapon and even though I may freak out on you for such mutterings/discussions, this is how I keep my sanity.

I would like to revive swear week this week because it not only helps get frustrations out but it is healthy to have a few swear words handy in your vocabulary.

PROMISES, PROMISES, PROMISES

I have had a thorough discussion with my mum this morn and she wanted to be mentioned in this post because she would like a little taste of the stardom I receive from you dear reader(s). In short, my mum is the sweetest, compassionate, caring person. She does at least one selfless act each day and she has grown and supported me on my moving out of the house(s) and living on my own. My mum is not only a mentor but a best friend and we share many a laugh together.

Mum and I are sick of people making promise after promise and not keeping their word. If the world was the way we conduct ourselves, which is keeping our word and being honest, their may not be so many flying assholes around. People make promises and never keep them, here's a few for example:

-I promise to fuck you (when really they are going to fuck you, just not in the correct area)

-I promise to converse more with you (if the person has been a shut in with their emotions forEver then don't expect this miracle to happen)

-I promise not to treat you so badly (this is complete and utter bunk-ola because if they have being doing it for long enough, old habits are hard to break, again, don't expect a miracle here)

-I promise to call you (yeah when someone says that don't ever trust them unless they are of the part of the population that my mum and I belong)

So many people do not realize that the break of a simple promise or even more valuable promise is a diss to their moral integrity and social standing. My mum and I pride ourselves on the fact that we are straight shooters, honest to the T, and not liars. When you break a promise usually a derivative of a lie is involved whether it be a fib, white lie, or the worst of them all, an out and out lie. When these derivatives are frequently used then one becomes labeled as a liar and rightly so. If you can't tell the truth and you can only tell lies, that is what you are so you FUCKED your own reputation.

In short, I try to impart the knowledge that in each of our own little brains we are perfect. If you tell yourself this everyday you will notice great improvements, I can attest to this because I have been doing it everyday for quite sometime. As long as you don't let the cocky bullshit come out, this is a safe practice and a good self esteem building exercise.

Try everyday this week to tell yourself that you are perfect, then report back here, if you like, and say how it made you feel and if you noticed any differences.

Have a good week my flock of PERFECT readers!

EVERYTHING HAS A PRICE

Dear Reader,

My progress on the name jar for my dad was good till this weekend and then $5 went in the pot. At least I was faithful about contributing when I called dad a bad name. My mum suggested that I carry it on until I can go a week without calling dad a bad name. The fact that I didn't really see dad helped and a few phone calls is not exactly like seeing him in person.
Sadly dear reader, I didn't receive any reports of suspicious activity which was a shame. I would have liked to hear what you guys considered funky junky.

This week's task:

EVERYTHING HAS A PRICE: THIS WEEK, FIND OUT WHAT IT IS

Go up to people and ask them how much they would require to part with their much-prized possessions, there and then. Here is a rough guide to the going rates:

Selling you their unfinished coffee:$9.04

Selling you their left sock:$16.28

Selling you a mouthful of their three course lunch:$10.85

Selling you the book their reading, book price +:$18.09

Selling you their pet:$2170.74

Selling you their umbrella in a downpour:$63.34

Selling you their place in the queue:$27.14

Selling you their soul:Negotiable

In some respects I find these prices quite exorbitant but in some ways these prices seem quite understandable.

My thoughts:

I would sell my soul for a decent price. I would be more then negotiable.

I would gladly give my left sock away because it's less laundry, and it probably stinks.

I would never give my unfinished coffee away because that's how germs spread, and most likely
I would like to finish it, add to my caffeine consumption for the day

I would never sell my book, especially the one I am reading unless it was really shitty, otherwise I would keep it and hoard it like I do with all the rest of my books.

I would gladly sell my umbrella in a downpour because Singing in the Rain was a great film, so maybe I could achieve some star status!

USE A PERSON'S REAL NAME or REPORT SUSPICOUS ACTIVITY

Dear Reader,

I have choosen a tough task for us this week. It's called, USE A PERSON'S REAL NAME. This task did not come from the book but I will add task from the book if you like. I personally think this is a great task. The point of this task is to pick one person, and make an effort to call them
by their name instead mean things.

Ex.

I regularly call my dad Stupid, Dumbass, Idiot, etc. For everytime I call him a mean name I am to put a $1 in the name jar.

The idea comes from the well known swear jar, but I have tailored it to suit a different purpose. Once you have completed an entire week you are to give the person that the name jar is for the monies that have collected by your mess ups. This also works well if you tell the person that you are doing this task, the down side to that is they may try to egg you on to using the regular BAD names for them, but that makes the task more challenging.

If you do not like the above task here is the alternative from the book.

FIND SUSPICIOUS ACTIVITY AND REPORT IT
We must be vigilant in the face of the terrorist threat. As the (UK) police suggest, “Where there's unusual activity that doesn't fit normal day-to-day life, we need to know.” -a broad call to action if ever there was one. Still, citizens must do their duty “if you suspect it, report it.”

Please leave your report of suspicious activity as a comment to the blog/post and it will be duely noted in my records.

Examples of suspicious activity:

“Mary at 29A hasn't put her recycling box out this week”

“There's a chap outside my house who's been tying his shoelaces for 2 whole minutes.”

“This bald man in local grocery just bought a three-pack of shampoo.”

“The Johnson's have bought fertilizer and it's not even planting season.”

“A dark brown 4x4 has just driven past the train station 3 times.”

“My colleague always puts down the phone when I walk in.”

“The curtains at #98 are always closed in the afternoon”

“How can that ghastly family afford such a bigger house then ours?”

Some of my reports (to start the week off with a bang)

A) There's a constant knocking sound coming from the apartment below (are they trying to let me know they are doing something mischeivous).

B) Someone always leaves the parking garage door unlocked (intruders could enter the building)

C) My cats freak out in the middle of the night, what causes this? (maybe they are under some spell)

D) Particular neighbours always want to talk to me, when I really have nothing to say to them. (what information are they trying to extort or get out of me)

E) People randomly throw garbage my apartment buildings' and work buildings' dumpsters (is
there something in the garbage that needs to be hidden)

F) Runners...they are always listening to something when running and appear in the zone (what are they listening to...instructions from the Master Runner and what zone are they locked into, one from Mars?)

USE A PERSON'S REAL NAME or REPORT SUSPICOUS ACTIVITY

Dear Reader,

I have choosen a tough task for us this week. It's called, USE A PERSON'S REAL NAME. This task did not come from the book but I will add task from the book if you like. I personally think this is a great task. The point of this task is to pick one person, and make an effort to call them by their name instead mean things.

Ex.

I regularly call my dad Stupid, Dumbass, Idiot, etc. For everytime I call him a mean name I am to put a $1 in the name jar.

The idea comes from the well known swear jar, but I have tailored it to suit a different purpose. Once you have completed an entire week you are to give the person that the name jar is for the monies that have collected by your mess ups. This also works well if you tell the person that you are doing this task, the down side to that is they may try to egg you on to using the regular BAD names for them, but that makes the task more challenging.

If you do not like the above task here is the alternative from the book.

FIND SUSPICIOUS ACTIVITY AND REPORT IT

We must be vigilant in the face of the terrorist threat. As the (UK) police suggest, “Where there's unusual activity that doesn't fit normal day-to-day life, we need to know.” -a broad call to action if ever there was one. Still, citizens must do their duty “if you suspect it, report it.”

Please leave your report of suspicious activity as a comment to the blog/post and it will be duely noted in my records.

Examples of suspicious activity:

“Mary at 29A hasn't put her recycling box out this week”

“There's a chap outside my house who's been tying his shoelaces for 2 whole minutes.”

“This bald man in local grocery just bought a three-pack of shampoo.”

“The Johnson's have bought fertilizer and it's not even planting season.”

“A dark brown 4x4 has just driven past the train station 3 times.”

“My colleague always puts down the phone when I walk in.”

“The curtains at #98 are always closed in the afternoon”

“How can that ghastly family afford such a bigger house then ours?”

Some of my reports (to start the week off with a bang)

A) There's a constant knocking sound coming from the apartment below (are they trying to let me know they are doing something mischeivous).

B) Someone always leaves the parking garage door unlocked (intruders could enter the building)

C) My cats freak out in the middle of the night, what causes this? (maybe they are under some
spell)

D) Particular neighbours always want to talk to me, when I really have nothing to say to them. (what information are they trying to extort or get out of me)

E) People randomly throw garbage my apartment buildings' and work buildings' dumpsters (is there something in the garbage that needs to be hidden)

F) Runners...they are always listening to something when running and appear in the zone (what are they listening to...instructions from the Master Runner and what zone are they locked into, one from Mars?)